I think it's time for a cuppa, don't you?  
Because I use Facebook as a ministry outreach, it means I'm immersed in "heavy" topics and information all day every day. I decided I need a break, and just do a blog on my everyday happenings. Some ponderings, maybe a rant or two, some just ...oh I don't know ...just a place to pull back and take a break now and then. It'll be fun to have a change of scenery.
And so ....here goes! Come along if you want.  

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Is It A Conspiracy?

The world is held captive by a virus. People are holed up in their homes. Most have never seen anything like this before.

But there are some who are paying attention - not to the virus, but to the way it has come about. Is it a conspiracy?

No one knows. We can only look at what we do  know and guess from there.

What do we know?

The timing speaks to me. There was this terrible, long drawn-out plot against the sitting president of the United States to have him brought down. How he stood it, I cannot imagine, it was awful. Finally, after 3 years of this foolish tirade - the impeachment failed. AND THEN ...immediately after that - the virus many say was man-made and deliberate - hit. And the world is hunkered down, held captive in their homes, because of it. I smell something fishy. If that doesn't give a foul odor - something's wrong with your nose.

So let's speculate. What was the greatest threat to the democratic party? One thing. The huge, I mean HUGE crowds showing up at every campaign rally held by Mr. Trump. And every time - so many thousands showed up that they couldn't get them all in the venues. To be sure, no democratic candidate drew crowds like that. What an embarrassment! This guy has to be stopped! Those crowds are going to determine the election results! How to stop him? Well ...just coincidentally along comes a virus which gives the opportunity to keep everyone at home, to effectively STOP the humongous crowds amassing at every Trump rally. Is that a stretch? Might be. But if there's no connection, the timing is a huge, huge coincidence, isn't it!

Many wonder if all this falls into the category of "signs of the last days." Well ...there isn't anything missing from the picture Jesus gave when he described those days, saying they will be plagued with wars, rumors of war, earthquakes, famines and pestilence. They're all here, aren't they! Every single one of them. Some say there have always been wars and earthquakes, etc. Yes. Every generation has had its great war or great earthquake or great pestilence. But what makes the signs of the last days unique is that they ALL happen in the same generation, and increasing in severity, just as it is happening now, and just as Jesus said.

Another thing that speaks loudly to me is the New World Order forming. Some thought we'd be gone before this played out, and I believe we will be when it actually takes over, but the infrastructure of it is being put into place right now - and that's so obvious. You know, we had pandemic viruses in the past, H1N1 comes to mind, and they killed many. But never before has the population been made to stay at home as it is now. It's quite a picture: a virus - that many say is man-made and deliberate - takes over the populace, just as the election time draws near. Some call what we might make of that - "conspiracy theory." Sometimes it makes more sense to consider conspiracy theories rather than the known-agenda behind the mainstream media. Anyway, whether it was deliberate or not - the facts on the ground are that the population for the most part is captive in their homes. A very upsetting report has come out that Bill Gates is speaking of a vaccine that everyone would have to accept without which no one can work. How obvious is that! If you don't think that speaks of the global agenda ...educate yourself. When the New World Order takes over, there will be one man at the helm and he will dictate that no one can buy or sell unless he has the specified mark on his hand or forehead. There's much more to that mark than just a number. Jesus said that anyone who takes that mark will forfeit all chance of being saved and will be thrown into hell. I don't think the vaccine Bill Gates is talking about is going to be that mark. Or ...is it? At the very least, it will be the precursor.

So ...is this it? And the answer is: no one knows. We don't know. It could be. And if not, it will be soon.

Things are so obvious as we watch the Antichrist kingdom laying down its infrastructure. I look at the leaders of the two countries on earth that are dedicated to God - Israel and the United States - and it's no coincidence that both leaders of those two countries have been hounded and persecuted viciously and maliciously ongoingly - I mean, BOTH of them??? At the same time??? How they have endured, it can only be the prayers of God's people. Will they survive? They will as long as they haven't completed their call. God placed each of these men at the head of their respective countries for a purpose, and as long as that purpose hasn't been completed they will remain - no power in hell can topple them. But once their mission is completed, the New World Order is just waiting and panting to get rid of them. And then ...

Then what?

The "great Tribulation" spoken of by the prophet Daniel and by Jesus Christ is at hand. Satan's hour is near. When God removes his hand of protection, all hell will break loose upon planet earth. When God removes "the restrainer" the global New World Order will take over and they will bring up their leader, the man prophesied of from of old, the Antichrist who will be possessed with Satan and who will bring about Satan's long-awaited desire - to be worshiped. God will allow it. For a pre-determined time period. And then the end will come.

Years ago when I came to the Lord there was a great flurry of interest in "the last days," the Rapture, the second coming of Christ, and all the details surrounding all that. But as the years wore on and none of it happened as soon as people expected, many became scoffers. They became dull of hearing. They didn't want to hear it anymore. And believe it or not, that very thing was prophesied in the Bible (2nd Peter 3:3-4). So it sure strengthens the remark Christ made when he said he would return at a time when they weren't expecting him.

If there is anyone who can hear this message, get right with God. The time is at hand.

He'll Hurt You Where It Hurts Most

This needs to be a book chapter, not a post. One way I get my head straight is to write an issue out. Writing always clears my mind.

So starting at the beginning...

I got up one morning to find multitudes of "notifications" from Facebook that my posts were violating their community standards. Some of the notifications said they were spam. And of course, neither was true.

Over the next few days, most anything I posted was blocked, and up came that notice. The next day I went online to find FIFTY SIX (56) notifications from Facebook against my posts. I hadn't even posted 56 posts ( ! ! ! ) and taking a closer look I found that Facebook was sending multiple notifications against the same posts.

This is what I do. My whole life is dedicated to the Lord and it is HE who told me to use Facebook as ministry. I remember the day, I'll never forget it. I remember how shocked I was when he told me to use Facebook.

"You want me to use FACEBOOK???"

So I started, and have continued several years now. It's what I do. From morning to night I am working on blogs, and then posting blog posts onto Facebook. Every day I post a devotional, an article I've written, and a video. I also look through postings from friends and either "like" or comment, or share their posts.

It's my job, and I put way more than 40 hours a week into it. If Satan wanted to hurt me, that's where he could hurt me the most.

So ...what to do about the censorship? I had no idea. All I knew is that I couldn't post.

That morning - anyone who walks with the Lord will relate to this - my Scripture reading was Galatians  5:10

"...he who troubles you shall bear his judgment, whoever he is."

Wow, I had never seen that before in the multitudes of times I've read through the New Testament. And on the very day I SO MUCH needed encouragement. This Scripture assured me that not only do  I have an enemy, but that the Lord himself will deal with him or her!

Within the next 4 days I received more than 250 "notifications" from Facebook that my posts violated their "community standards"or were considered spam. So every time since then when I've posted from my blogs - that message comes up and the post is removed. Over 250 times. Within 4 days.

So then I spent a huge amount of time researching - and I've found there's nothing you can do. Facebook has no email address and no phone number. You wouldn't believe the amount of people out there with similar problems. Some were even businesses that went down and they had no recourse.

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Here's an email I sent a friend:

"I can no longer message you or anyone. I was going to answer a friend's message and a box came up saying it was violating their terms. In Messenger!!!

I tried to post in the groups, the posts were taken down.

I followed all the suggestions people made about blocking and settings, etc. Nothing worked.

I tried creating a new Facebook account, they knew it was me.

There is absolutely nothing more I can do."

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So I did some research and found only one place where you can report Facebook censoring, and I've reported them three times now. I don't put a lot of expectation in that, I knew it was probably worthless but I did it anyway. Here's the link if anyone needs or wants to use it:


This went on for days, in fact it's still going on. I was able to post a notice on Facebook that it looks like I'm losing my Facebook account, with a brief explanation.

Then my daughter called me from Connecticut and I told her what was happening. She spent a lot of time with me trying various things, but it was when she went to my blog and tried to share a post onto her Facebook, the message came up. So. It's the blog. That's what they're blocking. Where I spend most of my time. Of course. If Satan wanted to hurt me, that's where he could hurt me the most.

Then we experimented some more and found that most of the Facebook posts they were blocking were any that contained a blog link. I found that I can post text, but not any with a link.

Next morning I changed the URL of my blog, and it seemed to work. I posted, and no message came up. Then I posted again ...and there came the message. Even after changing the URL - they were still blocking me. Didn't make sense, and still doesn't.

My friends on Facebook offered all kinds of tips and advice, and I followed them all, starting with making my Facebook page private, for "friends only." I HATED to do that, because all I post is Christ-centered, and it's meant to reach out to a lost and dying world. My prayer every single morning is that the Lord will direct the posts to people who need them. In my mind the only way to do that was to make them public - otherwise, I'm preaching to the choir because almost everyone on my friends list is already a believer. But you do what you have to do, and I had to remove my posts from public to friends only and my only hope is that friends will share them so the Lord can direct them to whoever he would use them with.

But the problem continued, and many friends were telling me that someone is reporting me, that's why I'm being blocked. So ...how to find one person in 3,700 who might be reporting me and effectively shutting down my ministry?

First, I withdrew from every Facebook group I was in - groups whose combined numbers are over a million members. Talk about painful. But someone from those public groups was most likely targeting me. So I had to withdraw from them all.

Next, I'm in the process of going through my 3,700 friends list and removing all those guys from Asia and Africa who I naively allowed onto my friends list over the years. Next, I've made a list of all on my friends list who interact with me either by "liking" posts or leaving comments. And today I posted a notice that I'm deleting those who don't interact with me, BUT ...if anyone on my list only reads and doesn't like or comment, but wants to stay on my list, let me know. Many have responded - some from people I haven't heard from in a long, long time.

My Scripture reading is in Philippians 1, which I'm convinced God put into the Bible just for me, because it SO addresses what I'm going through:

vs 12:
But I want you to know, brethren, that the things which happened to me have actually turned out for the furtherance of the gospel...

vs 13-14:
...it has become evident to the whole palace guard, and to all the rest, that my chains are in Christ; and most of the brethren in the Lord, having become confident by my chains, are much more bold to speak the word without fear.

vs 27-28:
...that you stand fast in one spirit, with one mind striving together for the faith of the gospel, and not in any way terrified by your adversaries ( ! ! ! ) which is to them a proof of perdition, but to you of salvation, and that from God.

vs 29-30
For to you it has been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for his sake, having the same conflict which you saw in me and now hear is in me.

You know, I've read that before, but today it appears when I really need to hear it, as confirmation and encouragement that this is the normal Christian life.

So, there you have it. A chapter in my book, I guess.

Anyone who thinks to follow the Lord Jesus Christ must first count the cost, because there IS going to be a cost. Those who suffer with him will reign with him (2 Tim 2:12), but you can't remove the suffering from the equation. There are many Scriptures telling us that if we want to follow him we have to pick up our CROSS and follow him (Luke 9:23). What is a cross? It's what people die on.

So why would anyone want to do that?

For the joy set before him.

"...let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, WHO FOR THE JOY THAT WAS SET BEFORE HIM endured the cross, despising the shame..."  Hebrews 12:1-2

Take a Closer Look

March 22

So I go online this morning and Facebook has sent me 36 more notifications of posts they're taking down because they violate they "community standards." I didn't even post 36 posts yesterday. Facebook is spamming me.

But this may be a blessing in disguise. I think that anyone who spends a lot of time on Facebook - most will come away feeling down because of the plethora of bad news out there everywhere. I check the headlines on Fox News every morning, and interesting - almost of the posts are on the virus. MOST of them. To the point of being just so obvious.

And that brings me to a second point. Take a look at those headlines on Fox News. Do you see a lot of news there? No, the page is filled with posts on the virus - there is hardly any news on Fox News today. It's so saturated with posts about the virus that it leads me to another thought: what are they covering up? If there weren't this virus, what would have been posted as news? Is there nothing else going on in the world?

I think that after this virus subject is over with, watch for articles from the alternative media about what was covered up by the way-overdone subject of the virus.

I hate to be or to think like a conspiracy theorist, but if anyone is paying attention to the exclusive bombardment of "news" on the virus, it just leads you to an awareness that this is not normal, and it's downright suspicious. They are overdoing it. WAY overdoing it. I like a saying I've heard, "Satan always overplays his hand." And when you see it happening right before your eyes, be wise enough to question what's going on.

A point to keep in mind: this is not the first time we've had a bad flu season. Do you remember the H1N1 virus of not so long ago? It was as bad as, if not worse than, this current virus. But they didn't shut down the country over it, did they? Never mind, the whole world being shut down.

What tipped me off happened in the very beginning. The mainstream media began reporting on a flu that developed in China. At that point the number of cases was very small - YET - the word "pandemic" was being used. I remember wondering why that word was being used when there were only a few cases. I remember the cold chill that went up my spine as I realized something was up. You don't use the word "pandemic" so early in the game when only a few people are sick.

If there's anything good that could come of this, let it be that people might start thinking about their mortality and maybe, just maybe, this might bring people's attention to the God they've been ignoring until now. Mercifully, he will be there to welcome anyone who turns to him.

Is It Official?

March 21

Well I guess it's official? They're taking down all my posts on Facebook. Today alone I've received over 100 notifications of posts they're taking down. One odd thing about it is that many are notifications on the same posts. I think they've told me 20 times that they're taking down my daily video post. So something is weird on their end.

This has been going on for several days now. Of course I've taken it all to the Lord, and -  well -- what would we do without the Lord? I take things to him and I get peace inside. He knows. He sees.

So basically I'm waiting on him for further direction. It occurred to me that maybe I should look into a web site, so I went to one I had looked at awhile back and the site is down. So I guess that's a "no." Or at least a "not now."  The way I left it in my prayer time this morning was "I'm waiting on you, Lord."

I guess this is a good time to update my blogs. I have two, one at Wordpress and one at Blogger. I like the Blogger one much better, but Wordpress has its place too. Anyway, the way to promote your blog is to ....... you know .....feature it on Facebook. 

Yep, I'm laughing. Better to laugh than to cry I guess.

Anyway, I've got to go figure a way to post my 3 posts every day, whether to post them here or create another place to feature them. I might need to sleep on it first, my brain is pretty much mush right now. 

I May Be Done With Facebook

I came onto Facebook this morning and this is what I found:

In the minutes since then, they have multiplied this many times. My inbox is full of these.

This has been going on for several days now. And I have no recourse. There's no one you can make contact with, there's no way to resolve this. On each notification there is a place to ask for a "review," and I've done that, but it goes nowhere.

They have effectively destroyed my Facebook presence. The only thing I can do now is try to develop a following on my blog. I have several sites, all on different topics, listed on my "About" page. Here's the link to that:


I thank anyone who will share this. It's been a terrible week, this Facebook attack happening daily and multiple times a day. Thank you for anyone who cares. I'm pretty bereft right now.

Anyone remember Jade Helm?

Amazes me how the world can do something right out in the open knowing that in a couple years people will forget all about it.

For months during 2014 and 2015 we saw endless lines of trains and flatbed trucks transporting armaments across the country. Huge, I mean huge, convoys of military jeeps and tanks, huge convoys of UN vehicles trailing for miles and miles and miles. Where were all these going? And why? We were told various things, none of which made any sense whatsoever. If it were a temporary exercise, did anyone see them convoyed back to where they came from?


People make fun of "conspiracy theorists," and sometimes they do take it too far - but when you see something like that take place for weeks, months, like nothing you'd ever seen before - does it make sense to just forget about it when it seems to be over? Well ...that's what they're counting on - that the public has forgotten about it by now.

Some of us haven't. Some of us understand that we witnessed a never-before-seen stage of preparation for "something," and that those things were never returned - meaning those military and UN armaments are still sitting there, wherever they took them. And the public has forgotten about them.

Does this have anything to do with the man-made sickness that has been unleashed upon the whole world now?

We can only wait and see. But I just want to put a bug in your bonnet - reminding you to step back and take a sober look at this thing. What is the bigger picture?

The "New World Order."

The New World Order people gave it their best shot, trying to get Trump taken down, because he's the great cog in their wheel. How long did we suffer through a bogus impeachment program that eventually failed? It was beyond disgusting, and they made absolute fools out of themselves.

So. The impeachment effort failed. And now this. Immediately afterward. An illness that is quarantining the world. One US state has already mentioned the loaded word "martial law." California. Look it up. But is that raising any eyebrows? Or - have we become the frog in the pot.

You have to ask: WHY?

Well let's look at why.

"Agenda 21" was planned to bring in the New World Order over this year and next year. They were counting on - and sure of - Hillary being elected into the White House. That failure was an absolute shock to them, because till then their plans had evolved toward the goal without restraint - mainly because people didn't "get it." Folks, they planned for the global New World Order to be in the process of rolling out this year.

If you don't know what the plans of the New World Order are for mankind, read the Georgia Guidestones. It's written there. They intend to reduce the world's population from 7 billion, to 500 MILLION. How are they going to do that? They have several ways, but a man-caused worldwide pandemic would easily advance that program. I believe this current "pandemic" is a trial run. It's not killing that many people. But it's showing the puppets behind the New World Order what the effect of a pandemic CAN achieve for them.

What is standing in the way?

Donald Trump.

He is not a globalist, he is an American patriot. They can't have that. Hence ...the major effort to impeach him.

Failing that - a pandemic.

The greatest threat Trump posed was his campaign rallies in several states. The New World Order people were aghast as they saw the multitudes try to crowd into every venue where Trump was speaking - crowds so huge that they couldn't get everyone in. People would gather HOURS before the doors were opened, to be sure to get in. I don't know that we've ever, EVER seen such huge gatherings of American patriots and such applause for a patriot leader as what we witnessed as the multitudes upon multitudes flocked around this man who has brought sanity to our land. You can just imagine that the New World Order people were enraged as they witnessed this, and from their rage they've gone crazy with creating situations to stop this man.

Most Christian believers know that it is God who placed this businessman in the White House. The odds were so stacked against them that the New World Order people just laughed at him. But when it happened - volcanoes erupted in their souls - hatred beyond the imagining and plots and plans to stop this thing. So far, they haven't been able to stop it, none of their malicious hate-filled efforts have succeeded. They have NO IDEA that it is GOD they're plotting against.

Will Trump have a second term? It all depends on one thing: whether or not he's completed his assignment. If he has, the Lord will step aside. Satan's hour is at hand. If he hasn't, then no power on earth or in hell can stop Trump from being reelected.

Prophecy watchers are all wondering where we are on the prophecy timeline. We'll have a better idea as we watch things unfold. If God has Trump in office for another term, we may be here for awhile. If not...

They're Doing It To Many

It's been a tough past few days. Facebook has come against me like never before, taking down post after post after post. But as I shared all this with my Facebook friends, I began to notice a pattern in the comments they left. This is happening across the board to other believers as well. Here are a few of the comments people have left on my Facebook posts:

from Michael
Today I posted a time-lapse video of plants springing out of the ground and blooming accompanied by a Bible verse. Facebook called it SPAM too and took it down. They have been messing with me more and more as well for absolutely no reason other than that they obviously don't like my religion and politics. This is probably just the tip of the iceberg of how much they are limiting conservative voices, especially in light of the coming election.

from Brenda
Been seeing this a lot lately with my own page.

from Michael
Today I have had two other posts in which I dared question the government's PC overreach on this coronavirus taken down by Facebook as hate speech.

from Zoraida
Join the club, they do it quite often to me too

from Jennifer
They just did that with three of my posts! All I did was share news articles!

from Sherillyn
They just took down my comment about the Dallas Mayor and an article link.

from George
same thing happened to me earlier

from Annetta
It’s happening w everyone! Mine were from last week!

from Shadley
I shared a post written by TX friend, and it had a link verifying the info. FB told me it went against community standards. I objected. Then U went to this friend's page to report in it, and, lo and behold, the original was still on his page. On my FB it goes against community standards, but on his page it is okay. DUH!

from Sallly
I got a thing yesterday removing one of mine!! sigh...

from Elisabeth Ann
That's insane. well just think I was banned a couple weeks ago for no reason. Now I can no longer post in any of the groups ever !!! They have communists working here ! They hate Christians

from Elaine
I tried to post a Christian Happy Birthday card for Sharon D and FB did the same thing to me. The card was beautiful and nothing wrong with it.

from Lynn
They block mine frequently - keep trying

from June
 I got told that about some of the post I've been posting, they said its against their standards.

from Susan
I thought I was the only one. I had saved many Christian images and and uplifting Christian messages and they are gone

from Cindy
I have a Bible and Prophecy page, and FB has taken the readership down to almost nothing. They don't like anyone posting about the coronavirus no matter what it is, and they don't like anyone saying anything negative about the Democrat politicians.

from Jaime
They took down my post of handsy Joe video the pervert.

from Patricia
They took down my Prophecy post

from Connie
Yes mine was removed it was a meme about dogs. Not offensive at all unless there is some super sensitive dog lover working there with no sense of humor.


* * *  I also lost my two Twitter accounts. Over 8,000 followers. First they shadow-banned me for awhile, and then they totally stopped all my posts. No more Twitter account.

Here is a place you can report it:


This Virus - My Take On It

I may make some enemies with this post, but it's just my two-cents worth.

You have to understand the agenda behind this. Election day is drawing near and the democrats have not been able to stop president Trump in spite of all their wicked shenanigans. One thing that is most successful in Trump's election-year campaign is the tremendous rallies he's been holding in so many states. The thousands gather, even more than what the venues can hold. It's been a tremendous success as America sees how this president is loved.

But as much as he is obviously loved by so many, Trump is hated by the left. They've gone into panic mode upon seeing the multitudes upon multitudes gathering to hear him speak. They have to do something to stop this. They HAVE to.

I'm not saying that the Corona virus isn't real, nor that it isn't dangerous. It's real. It's dangerous. But it's also man-made ...in part for the reasons stated above. Trump has stopped the previously-unhindered advance of globalism. That's one of the main reasons they have to stop him.

When you consider the tremendous impact this virus is having on the world, the airlines could go out of business, hotels are closing, schools are closing, all venues that draw people are closing - the damage is inestimable - think AGENDA. We've had some pretty terrific viruses in recent years - think MERS, SARS, H5N1 Bird Flu, the regular yearly influenza, and many more - and ask why the world didn't shut down when these deadly viruses appeared. Each of them was a powerful and often deadly disease which took over the lives of many, many people. But none of them shut the country down, did they? Ask WHY. Think AGENDA.

In my opinion, we should all have gone out and exposed ourselves to it so that we'd get it and get over it. Yes, some would die, but most would get over it. Some died with the other diseases mentioned above. Is it right to shut down the country? To allow the tremendous damage being done to worldwide services, shutting down some companies who can't afford the losses? One could say yes it's worth it - IF - it would have been worth it when those other viruses appeared.

I Didn't Get It At First

I have been immensely frustrated with Facebook, as they have taken down 7 of my posts this week saying they went against their "community standards." I've been very upset about this.  Every day I pray about posting, asking for guidance. Why was God allowing this?

I came across a Scripture a couple days ago which just jumped off the page to me - any believer reading this will know how that happens when God is speaking. I didn't connect the dots at first, but after praying this morning I am beginning to realize that God is doing this purposefully. The Scripture is this:

"Commit your works to the Lord,
and your THOUGHTS will be established."
Proverbs 16:3

At first, when the Lord first directed my attention so powerfully to that Scripture, I rejoiced because it's a new promise I can stand on. It had never occurred to me to pray that God would establish my THOUGHTS. What I didn't realize...

Just as Facebook started coming against me this week, the Lord was speaking this passage to me and this morning when I went to him about Facebook coming against me, as I sat there before him the light went on and  I finally connected the dots. I finally understand what he's conveying to me. And it's this:

I'd left my first love.

I had to go back to the beginning. Why am I on Facebook at all?

One morning in my prayer time years ago, I had told the Lord that I had used everything, every program, every single thing he had provided to me, I had used them in my blogs for his glory. He said to me, "You haven't used Facebook."

I was absolutely shocked. I had a very low impression of what Facebook was back then. I had taken a look at it way back, and decided it wasn't for me. Seemed nothing but foolishness to me. But now THE LORD is telling me to use FACEBOOK???? It took me awhile to recover from the shock.

So, and this was a few years ago, I went onto Facebook and began to post on it the links to my blogs. After awhile I realized how powerful a venue it is, because that's where the people are. So I began posting daily. A devotional, an article, and a video, all Christ-centered.

But as time went on, I began posting other things too. And that grew and grew until I was posting tons of posts from others who posted on the government, the evils in society, etc. I was taking on a "watchman on the wall" mentality, informing people of serious things going on in the world. In short, without realizing it I was on my way to losing my first love.

So then the Lord brings this Scripture to me before I had any idea that it had any importance concerning what I do daily online. As the Lord was rhema-fying this Scripture to me, Facebook was opposing me, taking down my posts. I was so upset that I became discouraged and depression set in.

Until this morning. I went to the Lord about what Facebook was doing to me and I asked him why he was allowing it - because I had been praying for protection on my posts. As I sat before him, it was like a light went on. The scales fell from my eyes. Understanding came.

I am NOT a "watchman on the walls," many are but I am not. I'm called to glorify Jesus Christ and shine the light on him. And now that I see that, I realize how far I strayed from my calling. Amazing. I pray for guidance daily, but I didn't recognize the guidance until he opened my eyes.

I may post other things, humor, recipes, sharing, but I'm no longer going to post on what's happening in the world. I am NOT of this world, and my calling is NOT to post on the world and its evils. Many ARE called to that. I am not. I'm returning to my first love. It's all about him, and my works will center on him. May the Lord Jesus Christ once again be glorified in what I put out there, and may people be drawn to HIM as I work in the calling with which I am called.

A Diet That Works!

Well I'm in my 10th week of Keto and I've lost 18 pounds.

You know ...

I did this once before but didn't stick with it and the reason is that I did it without understanding the science behind it. I DID NOT KNOW that sugar is poison - except for natural sugars in fruits. Also, I DID NOT KNOW about the chemicals they put in almost all packaged foods, be it cans, cartons, boxes, or plastic. And if I had read the labels on those products, it wouldn't have meant anything to me because I had no idea what they meant.

Of course ...I put that weight back on and then some, but I didn't understand why that was. I thought I was eating pretty low-calorie foods - you know, "low fat" and "lite" everything - so how was I continuing to gain? And so ...

I did what I always do when I'm overwhelmed with something. I asked God.

Long story short ...

When the Lord gets involved it changes everything. I was at a place of powerlessness and I asked him one night if he wanted me fat. Maybe the idea of losing weight was vanity? And if that's why I haven't been able to succeed in this, then I finally ...accept that.

The next morning....

Again ...long story short...

He answered me. It's not about vanity, it's about health. I was poisoning my body with "low-fat" and 'lite" foods, and I had no idea.

You know ...they always told us that the most detrimental thing to health was fat in foods. Well come to find out ...that was NOT TRUE. The most detrimental thing to health is twofold: 1. sugar and 2. chemicals they put in prepared foods.

I was shocked. I had been doing exactly the opposite from what I should have been doing. The Lord brought understanding to me through doctors who support the "ketogenic" diet, which is the exact opposite from what mainstream doctors espouse. The exact opposite from what all the people believe who cannot lose (and keep off) weight.

I think I've listened to a trillion videos now, and now that I understand the facts, I've reset my attitude to doing the exact opposite of what I've tried to do for years. And the proof is in the pudding ....week 10 and I've lost 18 pounds. And now that I understand WHY I couldn't do it before, I'll keep it off this time - by the grace of God.

The keto diet is a total change of the way you eat. At first it sounds restrictive because you eliminate all the bad stuff and you have to train your mind to understand that what was good is really bad, and what "they" said was bad is really good. As it turns out, I really love the foods I CAN eat. All the meat you want. Eggs. Cheese. Nuts. Berries, and so much more.

I created a keto site where I've posted the videos that helped me the most. I'm hoping it will encourage others who, like me, have yo-yoed for years and just never succeeded in the battle. Kinda reminds me of a Scripture verse, "My people perish for lack of knowledge." (Hosea 4:6)

I won't lie to you - it isn't easy. It's not easy to totally change the way you've eaten for years. But it's do-able, especially if you ask God for help. That changes everything.

Here's the link:

Going Back To Blogger

Well I've decided to go back to Blogger. After more than two years at Wordpress, I became so irritated with what I CAN'T do with my Wordpress blogs, that the day came when I decided it's just not worth it and I'm going back to Blogger.

The reason I went to Wordpress in the first place was that Blogger up and deleted one of my blogs. I had no recourse, they just deleted it. So I abandoned the Blogger blogs and tried something new with Wordpress.

But with Wordpress you have to work within the limits of their templates. That means you have to go with the fonts they provide and you can't change the font sizes. Then there's the inability to determine whether or not to print the date of a post. The template says "Posted on..." and if you don't set it to post the date, it leaves that glaringly blank on the screen. I like the date printed in my daily-update blogs, but I have several which are stand-alone and timeless, but each post is going to have that blank "Posted on..." field and I can't live with that. A partially worded blank field is not something I can live with. AND - there are SO MANY other problems with Wordpress. I'll probably make a list of them and do a really detailed post for anyone trying to decided to go to Wordpress, but not today, I'm way too busy.

Basically the problem with Wordpress is that you can't access the HTML, and that's huge. That's the big thing - the need to be able to access and make changes in the HTML. Can't do it in Wordpress. Oh, you can - with the paid versions - but I'd have to pay monthly FOR EACH blog I created there - and no one on earth could afford to do that.

Blogger does not have those restrictions and Blogger allows access to the HTML.

I'm not going to delete my Wordpress blogs, I'll leave them up. Who knows, I may go back there from time to time. But my daily work is going to be in Blogger from now on.

Funny - now that I'm working in Blogger I see that all the posts I have there are very old of course. So I'm in the process of updating the blogs. Time consuming, but I love doing this stuff anyway.

If  you'd like to take a look, here's the URL. It's only showing the first few blogs I've updated, I'm far from getting these all done. Still, I have accomplished a lot in just a few days.


What's Your Favorite Time of The Year?

If you said anything other than "spring," maybe I can help you change that?


Spring is my absolute favorite time of year. Yeah, I know, most people would say fall is their favorite, but not me. When fall comes and the leaves are falling, I just cannot, cannot, CANNOT enjoy it because I know what's coming. Leaves begin changing color slowly, from about September. And true, we'll have many nice days and apple cider, and tree-peeping, and all that. But have you ever tried to enjoy something when there's a rock in your shoe? Cuts down the enjoyment, doesn't it. Well ...that's how fall feels to me. In September that darned rock is in my shoe and I can't rise above it. That's how much I hate what fall tells us is coming ....snow. And if any of you leave a comment, please don't mention that four-letter I just wrote.


I love Maine. I've lived in many other places, but Maine is home to me. It seems to me that every place has a certain "feel" to it, have you noticed that? Even within Maine, some of the cities have their own "feel." Have you ever crossed the bridge from New Hampshire into Maine? Did you notice the complete change of "feel" from one end of that bridge to the other? When I cross that bridge and enter the state of Maine, I feel like a warm blanket of fresh air has enveloped me. Really!

One day I was thanking the Lord for the gift of being able to live in Maine, and he spoke to my heart and told me that the bad winter weather is the reason we don't have the crowds and crowds of people here. If for example, I lived in southern California, which I did for about a year, then I'd have to live in the "feel" of what I "call the southern California craze" which is "busy, busy busy," "run, run, run." Eight-lane roads everywhere, even in town. In Maine, a traffic jam is one car at each side of an intersection. Yeah! And people aren't running around like mad. It's laid back. Quiet. Pleasant. Relaxed. And winter is the price we pay for living in Maine, "the way life should be."

I think I strayed from the subject, didn't I? When talking about Maine, I can go off on a thousands tangents.

Ok, where was I?

Oh yeah.... springtime. Spring is my favorite because of the "feel" in the air. Right now, the buds on the trees are just starting to plump up. You wouldn't notice it if you didn't look very close. They're not ready yet to pop into color, but just knowing that that is coming shortly actually puts me almost on a high. I LOVE it! 

Did I say, "I LOVE it?"

Well if you missed it, I LOVE IT! We've had two beautiful days in a row - temps in the high 60's, beautiful sunshine. If that doesn't put you on a high, you're walking around in a coma.

PRAISE GOD FOR SPRING! I should be ok now, for the next six months.


Understanding It Makes All The Difference In The World

I've had a few very frustrating days, but I didn't connect the dots until this morning. Nothing of a serious nature, but a constant barrage of aggravations. I opened a pill bottle, something seemed to hit my arm and the pills spilled all over the place. I had to get down on my knees to collect them all and put them back in the bottle. I was putting raspberry preserves on my toast, something seemed to hit my arm and the bottle fell spilling raspberry preserves all over the counter, down the cupboard doors, on the floor, AND, all over me. This morning I put water into a bowl and something seemed to hit my arm, and the water spilled all over the counter, in and around everything I had on the counter. I've tripped, almost fell twice, I've had numerous aggravations on the computer, and the list goes on, and on, and on, and on. There's more because the harassment has been ongoing, but I've made my point.

When I reached maximum steam coming out of my ears and nose, I said to the Lord, "why, Lord???" not expecting an answer. I speak to the Lord all day, this wasn't really wanting an answer (I actually didn't think there WAS an answer) but I was just expressing my frustration to the Lord who is always with me.

Well an answer came. For the past three days I've been preparing a series of posts on Halloween, exposing what it really is, and encouraging parents to put an end to "celebrating it." Now ...it all makes sense.

It reminds me of when I was working at the International Christian Embassy in Jerusalem. Every year we brought upwards of 5,000 people from all over the world to celebrate the Feast of Tabernacles. That's 5,000+ people gathering in Jerusalem to worship Jesus Christ. Each year, as we were working leading up to the celebration, suddenly the computers would go down, the printer wouldn't print, anything electronic would give us troubles. People would get sick. I connected those dots and brought what I saw to the leaders at the Embassy, but they didn't receive it. Every year the trouble increased, until in my last year there - three people who had come as volunteers had to go home because of unexpected deaths in the family. To this day, I don't think anyone was able to see the correlation between non-stop attacks as we brought thousands to worship Jesus Christ in Jerusalem.

So, it helps to understand when you CAN connect the dots between harassment and what you happen to be doing in service to the Lord. We have to remember that Satan is "the god of this world" (2 Corinthians 4:4) who hates Jesus Christ and all who will serve him. And if you're planning on serving him in Jerusalem, that's a big time cause for demonic harassment. Or ...if you're exposing the truth about Satan's chief holiday, Halloween, you should know in advance that you're not going to get away with it without attacks to wear you down.

Well he can attack all he wants. It might tire me out, but I will NOT cease in my service to my King.

I Think I Stopped A Daily Frustration

Ended a frustration today, I think. Every time I went onto Foxnews or CNN a video would pop up and drive me batty. On Fox, the video would be full-volume and jump me every time I click on an article. I was so frustrated that I decided to stop going to Fox altogether, but first I did some research. Here's what I found:

I use Chrome, so I don't know if it would work on other browsers.

If you don't have Adblock Plus, get it and install it. But that's for other popups. Fox somehow circumvented Adblock Plus. What I found is that you can stop autoplay by clicking on the icon just to the left of the URL in the address bar, just left of https....
Then click on SOUND, and click MUTE.

1. Click icon at left of URL just before https....
2. Click on sound.
3. Click MUTE

I'm not sure, but you might need to do this for any other site that shocks you with video popups even though you have Adblock. I'm willing to do that. It's SO rewarding to me to find a way to stop Fox News especially because I go there so often - in fact this was my last try - I was going to stop going to Fox altogether, my nerves just couldn't take it, but just before doing that, I found this and so far, it's working.

A Meditation This Morning

I was listening to a clip Jan Markell played by Mark Levin who so accurately described what's going on in our world, in our country, in the government, in "the powers that be." And as I listened and realized the depths of wickedness against us, against our God, against our government, against our society, my heart grew heavier and heavier as he made it so clear - what we're up against. I actually felt sick.

I went to the Lord, and from him I remembered that we're not up against human enemies, we're up against human plants in society who so willingly carry out the will and plots of the "principalities, powers, the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."  Ephesians 6:12

From pondering that for awhile, I grew in understanding just exactly what "the restrainer" is. I saw it so clearly.

"For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work;
only he who now restrains will do so
until he is taken out of the way."
2 Thessalonians 2:7

From there my mind went to the horrible thought of what this society will become when that restrainer is "taken out of the way." Can you imagine it? The only thing resisting the forces of evil in our world is our voice - the voice of God-fearing people, the voice that restrains the evil from destroying all that is good.

But ...the day will come when our voice and our work, the "restrainer" - - - will be removed. Imagine it. Imagine the goals of the lying, murderous, perverse force of evil - being given full sway with nothing to stop it.

That's what it will be like when the restrainer is removed. What a picture of horror.

We cannot comprehend the depths of evil that will be unleashed in the world when we are gone.

As I prayed about it, I realized that the evil one also has a "restrainer," forcing the restraint of our voices and our work. And as I thought on that, I understood that the only way we can function successfully ...is through prayer.

Friends, this is a spiritual battle, not a battle against flesh and blood, but a battle against the one empowering them. He is a fallen angel, far superior to us in understanding. Our only weapon against him is prayer. The only way our work can function in the POWER needed is from spending time with God and receiving from HIM the power we need to work while we can. Because:

"...the night is coming when no one can work."
John 9:4

Trolls - It's Actually A Mental Illness

I heard an interesting video today on the subject of internet trolls. You see them all the time and wonder why they would waste time just trying to annoy people. You're looking at the comments on a site and invariably there's going to be some of this useless drivel. I've wondered why anyone would do something like that. Is their life so boring that they have nothing else to do?

In the video I'll post below, someone investigating the psychology of people who do things like that have actually concluded that it's a type of mental illness. They get pleasure out of annoying others. And of course, the fact that their pleasure is in someone else's pain - is proof positive that they are mentally ill. So what can we do about it? Probably nothing. They are on the low rungs of self-esteem and being able to control people by aggravating them makes them feel powerful. Pretty pathetic.

In something similar, I have some idiot "following" one of my blogs, and this person has absolutely no reason to. I've looked at his/her site and the posts they have on there have absolutely no similarity to the genre I post in, or in the kind of posts I post. They come every day, click on my "Follow" button, I remove them and they just keep trying to wear me down by repeatedly clicking that button after I've removed them over and over again. Pretty pathetic. Probably like some of the trolls - people of low intelligence acting out in their mental illness, people with nothing else to do. In an odd sort of way it's propelling me into my own growth in the ability to overcome the hatred I feel when I see them. I guess it's a good spiritual workout.

So here's the video. I hope you'll enjoy it. Maybe it will help us all in our effort to able to just ignore them.

Again Today!

I should be used to this by now, but every time the Lord does this it affects me deeply.

There are 1,189 chapters in the Bible. And time and time again the Lord does this.

I have written devotionals and articles and I post one of each every day. And time and time again I will read or hear during that same day the Scripture I posted in the morning. I"ll "stumble upon it" in some book I'm reading, or hear it in a video I'm listening to - the ways are myriad, but it happens so very frequently that in some way or other - I'll see or hear today - the very Scripture I posted earlier in the morning.

Today I picked up my Bible and just started reading from where I left off yesterday and there it was - my reading was the very Scripture I scheduled last night to post this morning. It just boggles my mind.

I look up to God every time and I say, "I don't know how you do this!" There was one chance in 1,189 that today my reading would fall on the very Scripture I posted earlier. One chance in 1,189 - how can it be? And if that weren't enough - it happens frequently, so the odds are exponentially higher.

I remember one time I had posted an article based on a Scripture in the Book of Numbers, one of the most obscure Books in the Bible. I could hardly believe it when later on I heard that same Scripture referenced in a video I was watching. I mean - it's one thing to hear during the day a reference to a passage in Psalms that I might have posted that day, but out of the Book of Numbers??? I was just gobsmacked! The odds of that are nearly impossible.

To me, that is absolute proof of God - this feedback happening again and again gets to the point where it's just not statistically possible. It arouses a deep and abiding appreciation of the involvement of the Lord in my daily life.

Let me go on, now that I'm writing. This happened again today, but it happened after I had spent time bringing thanksgiving to God for one thing I've noticed about him, one thing the Spirit of God has been showing me - and that is that every single story in my life, and there are many, was INITIATED by God himself. The Lord took me back through every story, starting in my teenage years, and he showed me that not one single story was the result of something I did. Every single story happened unexpectedly, by surprise. If I hadn't been at that place at that time - if I hadn't met that one person at that particular time, the incredible odds of that story ever happening. Not a single one was something I initiated.

In the past months, as he has taken me back to each one and showed me how every single one of them happened by surprise, by HIS initiating them, it causes in me such a deep and abiding trust in him, beyond what I could express because this has had such an impact on my understanding. I ended my prayer time this morning by saying from the very depths of me, "I am IN you, my whole life and my whole being, I am IN you, and I absolutely delight in that." Then I went to my daily reading, reading just from where I left off yesterday, and there it was - the very Scripture I had posted this morning. It just leaves me with my jaw at my feet.

Things are coming together in my mind. For years I've pondered how Paul and Silas were able to "sing praises to God at midnight" - in a dungeon, having been mercilessly whipped, their feet in stocks. Because the Lord has brought this passage to me in a very dramatic way - long story - I've asked God to give me understanding on HOW they were ABLE to do that. If I had been whipped and placed in a dark dungeon, blood streaming down my back - I can't imagine myself singing praises to God. Yet, he has brought that passage to my attention in a such a dramatic way that it has caused me to think deeply on it for quite some time. I have thought deeply on it, and I've asked him to reveal to me HOW they could have that mindset while they sat in such pain.

I think maybe I've seen some of the answer to my question. As the Lord has made me see so very clearly that every story in my life has been authored by HIM, then it follows that this understanding is the very thing that answers the question. If every story is God-authored, and every single one of them has been worked out for my good - then that's all I need to know in the painful ones, so how can I ever doubt when I find myself in a story that makes no immediate sense to me? I've seen what he's done with them in the past, every single time without fail, so now I can rest in that understanding and yes ....sing praises to him at midnight.

As I was telling the Lord this morning - I heard it said that when God brings a person into his covenant, he takes RESPONSIBILITY for that person's life. And that's it! I see it as never before. All our stories are authored by him and he authors each one for a very definite purpose. Nothing is random in our lives. God has pre-planned each one of them, and each - for a specific purpose.

It takes years of walking with him before a person can be ABLE to understand that. It takes years of seeing how he made each story end up to be a blessing I would never have had if that particular story hadn't happened. And it is this understanding that makes a person ABLE to praise God at midnight.

Finally ...I think I "get it!"

The Creation of A Life After Failure - It's 'A God Thing'

This is going to be way more than just a post, in fact, It might be one of the last chapters in my book. I was listening to a video this morning, it was about the earliest computers and the "beginnings" of the many sites we now use all the time. And it got me to thinking about the development and progression of my own story - truly "a God thing," from my first computer - a Commodore 64 - to today - to a world we couldn't have imagined back then. Coming from a world of failure, the Lord took this pretty-much-destroyed-human being and created a life for me - a life uniquely suited to my own DNA. That's a subject I write about a lot - the notion that each of us is unique on the face of the earth. Since the discovery of DNA, it has been revealed just how unique each of us is. And to me, the most important thing one can do in life is to find out from God what his purpose and plan is for that one distinct personality, the one he created and planned before we even appeared on the scene. This is part of my story - the discovery - initiated by God himself - which has been my fulfillment, the purpose for which I was created.

God foreplanned that my life would find its fulfillment in the context of the computer world, a world I would never have even heard of had it not been for the progressive action of God upon my life. Here's how it started:

My First Computer
The story begins with my Commodore 64 desktop computer. I had taken a course in computer technology at our local community college, and I loved it. Back then there wasn't a lot to choose from in the computer marketplace. In the computer technology class, we learned on an Apple IIE. At the time the Apple and the Commodore were pretty much all there was to choose from by way of the home computer. I loved my Commodore, and had no clue whatsoever that someday I'd have a computer with more than 64K of RAM. We had "floppy discs" back then, and storage capacity - well you'd laugh at it today but for us back then it was all new, and we were beyond excited.

The concept of being "online" was unheard of. My introduction to it took place one day when a co-worker sat at her desk quite intimidated, but anxious to learn. The tech guy was talking her through sending an "email." So ...what's a "email," I asked? It wasn't long before I got an email address and started interesting others to get one. I was overseas at the time and the thought of being able to send a letter to the US and family would be able to see it the same day - this was just incredible. As it was, it would take more than a week for a snail mail letter to reach me, and another week or two before my answer would be in the mail. So the letters that took two or three weeks turn-around time - was reduced now to hours. Anyone reading this won't be able to really appreciate what this meant for us. To send a letter and receive a reply in hours - it was something we were just amazed at. More than amazed. It changed the way we could communicate with family thousands of miles away.

The Internet
A friend came to visit one day, and he was excited! His wife had given him a disk containing the Windows 95 program! As though my imagination hadn't been stretched to the max, of course I had to ask, "what on earth is Windows 95?" And that was our introduction to something called "the internet," and pretty soon I bought the Windows 95 program on disk. Now we were really flying! It's not Kansas anymore, Toto.

Animated smileys
The next step in the development of what I had no idea would someday become a career for me - was the day my cousing Carlene sent me an email with a smiley in it. I just looked at that, stunned, how on earth ...??? So I emailed her and asked how she did that. She answered that she really didn't know - that her tech guy showed her how to do it, but she didn't understand it at the time. No one did. But of course ...I just had to find out. I went onto the "internet" and searched how to make a moving picture. And that was a huge step in my learning. I spent countless hours - actually days, weeks, -- months? learning all about this new find. I found sites with several kinds of moving pictures - known as gifs - and many were free to download. I filled a whole floppy disk with animated gifs and began using them in emails.

What on earth is a "blog?"
Then one day a friend sent me an email with a link in it, and told me to take a look. What's a link? Well ...I clicked on it and was taken to a BLOG. Ok, I'm looking at someone's "blog." I spent a lot of time examining this blog and took note of all the elements that made it up. After a longggg time looking that over, suddenly I noticed an orange icon at the top of the page. It said, "Make your own blog." What???? I could do that??? Oh well, I may as well click on that icon and see what happens. And voila! I was staring at Blogspot, a site that will host the blog you're going to create! I had no idea how to get started. How to set it up. There was a woman at my church who had a site online and she gave me all the information she knew about. And she referred me to another woman, someone who lived in Texas, and told me this woman knew a lot more. So I contacted my friend in Texas and she talked me through creating my own blog. It was 2005. In 2005 I created my first blog. I still have it to this day!

So ...learning about creating a blog was going to be a HUGE undertakning. I had only these two friends to ask questions of, and soon I knew as much as they did --- and that wasn't much! In studying the creation of a blog I realized I had to learn coding, called "HTML." I had no idea how valuable this was going to be for me, but I also had no idea how incredibly difficult it would be. I was already past my friend's knowledge base, so I was on my own. Well ...not exactly - I didn't realize at the time that this was all the Lord. But I was to learn over the next few years just how much it WAS the Lord, because I had to turn to him a zillion times as I came across something I needed to do on the blog and he was the ONLY one I could run to. Slowly, slowly, I learned the bare-bones basics of HTML. Briefly, it's the computer code that enables you to do things in the background of your "template," such as underlining, or putting something in bold, or spacing a paragraph, or choosing the colors you want for the blog background, etc, etc, there is no limit to what you can do with HTML, but boy, it was incredibly difficult to learn it from scratch and I spent enormous amounts of time experimenting with it. In fact, I created a "test" blog - where I would try out different things to see how they would come out. I didn't want to take a chance on my main blog - boy, you can mess things up really bad and then good luck trying to fix it. So my test blog was absolutely invaluable to me.

The next step in my learning curve was to investigate how to create graphics. On a site online I saw someone offering to make pretty signature graphics to sign your emails with. She offered to make them for anyone interested, so I asked her to make me one, and it came out beautifully. Nice colors, and my name on it. I emailed her and asked how she did it, and she told me she made them with a program called "Paintshop Pro." I showed the graphic to my daughter and told her about my communication with her, and my daughter and I decided we needed to get the program. We looked online and found it. It was priced at $90.00, so we each paid half because we weren't sure whether we'd like it once we got into it. Well! The program came and I loaded it into the computer. ......Now what? I just sat there and looked at this blank page with all kinds of icons for different tools one could use. I didn't have a clue. So I went out and bought the book, "Paintshop Pro For Dummies." Got it home, and I couldn't even read the first page. All the concepts were so foreign to anything I had ever known before, that I just got thoroughly overwhelmed and shut the book after one afternoon of trying to make senses of it. I guessed this wasn't going to be something we could do, it was way too complicated for us. But a few days later, I couldn't get it out of my mind, (that happens when it's "a God thing") so I went back to the bookstore and bought the book, "Paintshop Pro For Idiots." Brought it home, and again, I couldn't read the first page. Defeated, I put it away and tried to forget about it. Then one day when I was sitting at the computer, these words came to my mind, "search for Paintshop Pro beginner tutorials." I didn't even know what a tutorial was! But I did put that into the search box, and the rest is history. I found tons of beginner tutorials and slowly, slowly, VERY slowly started trying to understand something I had nothing to relate it to, no one to ask, but with those beginner tutorials I started to learn how to make graphics. Every time I learned something, I wrote it down and soon I had a "procedures" folder that became top-heavy, but that I couldn't ever have lived without.

So what was the end game? What was all this about?

Well ....

I started developing my blog. At the time I was only posting text posts. I learned how to take something from the internet, copy it, and paste it into a post. I played with that a lot, learning how to change text color, or bold it or underline it, and eventually I learned how to put a graphic into it. I think that now - if I were to take all my notes, I could put out an encyclopedia on all I've learned then and since.

Then one day I was in my prayer time and I told the Lord that I've made use of all he's taught me, I was writing every day, and putting in graphics to make the posts more interesting, and I was thanking him for all he'd enabled me to learn. Feeling pretty good that I had used everything possible to serve him online. He spoke to me that day in my prayer time. He said, "You haven't used Facebook." And I almost fell off my chair. FACEBOOK??? I had briefly looked at Facebook and found it to be totally uninteresting. People just posting any old thing, recipes, cute animals, nothing that interested me at all. So. God wants me to use Facebook??? I could hardly believe it. But ...of course I went and started a facebook account with no idea what on earth I would ever do with it. It took the Lord having to direct me, having to tell me what I COULD do with it, and he said the word, "Devotional." I asked, you want me to put out a devotional? Later that day he sent an enormous confirmation my way. So I started. And I've been doing it ever since.

And Facebook became far more than I ever would have imagined. I presently have over 3,000 followers and I interact with them daily as much as I can. Every once in awhile someone will message me that the devotional I posted in the morning was just what they needed to hear, and I came to realize how powerful a ministry it could become. And now, long story short, I'm reaching people all over the world with a daily devotional that I hope will impact people and encourage them in their walk with the Lord. And that's just for starters. I presently have dozens of blogs, all on different topics, all hand-made, and when I look at all that can be done online it just amazes me. I've gone from a smiley face to blogs, to world-wide outreach and this is most assuredly a praise testiomony because only I know the myriads of times I've gotten stuck on something and had no one to turn to for help. But what the Lord ordains, the Lord sustains and it must boggles my mind how many times I had to turn to him with something I just couldn't figure out - and later I'd "accidentally" stumble onto the answer while looking for something else. That had happened more times than I could begin to count. That has been my life from the beginning until now. And still I'm learning.

The greatest part of this testimony is that I came to the Lord as a total failure in life. I had failed at everything I had done. I developed PTSD as I lived out those stories, and that has caused me many limitations. But the Lord has taken those limitations and the free time I have because of them - and he has developed this ministry from the get go. When I remember back at the mountains of times he has had to lead me to answers - it's almost overwhelming to realize just how personal he has been in the development of this story. And today - I'm only interested in what I can do FOR HIM. I pray about what I write, the devotionals, the articles, even the pictures, because I have an understanding of WHO I am serving with it, and I know that if I forget to pray, it's evident in the outcome. But when I pray before working, I just look at the product and praise his Name, because only God could have done it.

So God took a total failure, and by a series of steps supernaturally guided - I've ended up preaching the Gospel of Jesus Christ all around the world. Daily. I can say  with the apostle Paul, "Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me" 2 Corinthians 12:9

If you feel that you have nothing to offer, especially if you're a broken person, set those attitudes aside and ask the Lord what he would have from you. Only he knows your makeup, your history, all about you - and he will establish you in HIS plan for your life, and believe me, it will be totally personalized to meet exactly the way he had made you. Just get started. Just ask.

"If you could see what I once was
If you could go with me
Back to where I started from,
Then I know you would see
A miracle of love
that took me in its sweet embrace
And made me what I am today,
Just an old sinner saved by grace."
-Sinner Saved by Grace


There are horrendous storms taking place in the middle of the country affecting millions...
The president has grounded all 737's because of the crash several days ago - which means thousands upon thousands are going to be stranded... flights cancelled ...
Facebook and Instagram are down GLOBALLY...
This is weird.

Facebook Update

I thought Facebook had taken my account down, but the thought occurred to me to check if others are having the same problem ...and they are. Across the GLOBE.
I was sure I'd lost the account because I've been in "Facebook jail" several times. But come to find out, it's not that at all.
Kinda soothes things.

Facebook Troubles

Wednesday March 13, 2019
Last night as I was doing my evening posting on Facebook, suddenly when I clicked "Share" .....nothing happened. I tried it again ...nothing. I logged out and came back in ...nothing. I found that I was able to post in a group, so I posted a notice saying that I'm not able to post on my timeline and directed it from the group to my timeline where the notice did post.
That was yesterday. This morning when I tried to log in, I got a notice that Facebook was down for "maintenance," and to try again "in a few minutes."  That was hours ago. I just tried again, and I got "page not found."
I don't know if any of my Facebook friends take a look at my blog from time to time, but I'm posting this for anyone who might be wondering what on earth is going on. What's going on is that it appears that my Facebook account no longer exists. If anyone from my Facebook friends list sees this, would you please post a notice that it looks like my Facebook account has been taken down.

A Praise Report

The Lord does this all the time with me...

Whatever I read in the Bible in the morning, I'll hear the very same passage again later in the day from someone, somewhere. What makes it remarkable (to me) is that He even "confirms" his approval when I'm in a non-popular passage, for example deep into Numbers or Leviticus. Who would ever expect to hear on the same day a passage I just read in the morning from a little-referenced passage deep within the Old Testament??? I just chuckle when I hear a little-known verse from someone somewhere, and it's the very same verse that was in my reading today. It never ceases to amaze me how God does that.

Well this time he has done it again in a different way. Yesterday I unintentionally got into a long and hard debate on Facebook on the subject of idolatry in the Catholic church. The person coming against me called me every name in the book and every response of hers was filled with vitriol. I didn't get into the "ad hominem" mindset, I mostly just posted Scripture that answered everything she said. This took place over several hours and when I signed out I was exhausted. And then she unfriended me. No surprise there.

So this morning I get up and when I went online and looked at the youtube videos from sites that I subscribe to, up popped a man speaking on the very thing that happened yesterday. He also did not go into "ad hominem" attacks, but presented the arguments against Catholicism in a very scholarly way and I knew, I just knew that it was a confirmation from the Lord, a hug from my Father, because he always does that. I don't remember the last time I saw a youtube video about Catholicism, I'm not subscribed to any anti-Catholic sites. This was what many would call a huge coincidence, but because the Lord does this so often, I knew it was from him and was greatly comforted.

We walk a very hard and sometimes painful walk when we take a stand on anything unpopular. We walk with a bulls-eye on our backs. But it is SO encouraging when the Lord comes back with a confirmation. It says he's watching, and he's involved. It just makes my day and enables me to absorb the fiery darts from the enemy.

Thank you, Father God!

* * * NOTE: An "ad-hominem" attack is when instead of responding to what you say, they attack you personally. When someone attacks the person rather than the message.

What Could Be Sadder?

This morning I was reading a post on Fox News, a suicide note left by a woman who hung herself. Suicide always has a profound effect on me as the first thing I think of is I wonder what the person was thinking - and what happened next, after the act.

My next thought was this: As gruesome as abortions are, and they truly are, yet what could be worse than ending one's life thinking they're getting away from their problems only to find themselves in hell for all eternity?

I want to add here - I'm not saying all who commit suicide go to hell, please don't think I mean it that way. But when you look at a life that shows no evidence of salvation, then you realize that in this case she more than likely ended up in hell. For all eternity. I think of the shock. Nothing could be worse than that.

I posted this on Facebook this morning - I wasn't thinking of starting a whole long argument, but that's what happened. Some thought I was being judgmental - I guess they didn't read the post well - I obviously wasn't being judgmental, I was just thinking out loud. Gotta be careful of that on Facebook.
Anyway, the complaint was that I was consigning suicides to hell. Of course I wasn't - only God knows the eternal fate of a person. I was just mulling over the possibility that the person did not know the Lord and if so, she wouldn't be going with him. The only way one can be saved is by being born again through faith in Jesus Christ. That's not my judgment, that's what Jesus has said. We are a sinful, fallen people. God loved the world so much that he provided a redeemer for whoever will accept him. Without a redeemer, one is lost. Scripture says they are "condemned already."

Pretty heavy stuff, but when you think of what Jesus Christ went through in order to redeem us, how can it be anything but logical that if someone doesn't receive what he did, there's just no other way.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son,
that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life. "

John 3:16

vs 18-19
"He who believes in him is not condemned;
but he who does not believe is condemned already,
because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world,and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil."

So is it judgmental to wonder if the person who committed suicide is in heaven or not?

When God Doesn't Heal

One day as I was walking home the Lord suddenly said to me, "I'm not going to heal you in this lifetime but I'm going to bless you all around it and I want you to enjoy those blessings." That was years ago and to this day I remember the words verbatim.
I have a condition, two actually, which greatly restricts me. But it's been the thing that has given me to understand, at least in my case, why the Lord would not heal. I was thinking on this yesterday. Later when I was working in my blogs I realized that if God had healed me, I would not have been home working on the computer - and I would not have created more than 30 blogs, nor would I be putting the Gospel out there all around the world every single day. That realization shocked me. God can use me in the greatest way by leaving me unhealed.

This is only my case, but I believe God has a reason each time he does not heal. It could be something as basic as our maturity process, which applies to me also - doesn't matter - it just shocked me when I realized what I've been doing all these days unhealed and wouldn't have done if he had healed me.

What Is A "Prayer Warrior"?

* * * I need to make a statement clarifying a false image of me that some have.

This morning, someone asked me to pray for a situation ....because I'm a "prayer warrior."
I'm not. And I felt conviction letting the person think something of myself that I'm not. Which led me to investigate why I felt conviction.

Let me explain...

What is a "prayer warrior"? I've been mulling this over in my mind all morning.

Well, when you hear the word "warrior," you have to think of an armed enemy that you go out against. I learn from the Old Testament stories that Israel was to go out armed against their enemies ONLY when the Lord told them to. That means if you tackle an enemy without God sending you, you will be defeated or painfully wounded in the battle.

Just yesterday my Bible reading happened to be the battle at Ai which Joshua took upon himself to wage, and Israel was soundly defeated. There was a reason for that. Joshua didn't know that there was sin in the camp, and that fact led him and his army to a stinging defeat. But worse than that, he did not ask the Lord before going out. He was greatly emboldened by his previous victory at Jericho, so he just ran out against Ai. And he was soundly defeated.

I see two principles here:

1. If there's sin in the camp, you risk a sound defeat and possible deep wounding.

2. Joshua didn't wait on the Lord, he went out rashly. That brought devastation upon the Israeli army.

I think we need to pay strict attention before we rashly call ourselves, or allow ourselves to be called, "prayer warriors." I pray. But I do not move against the enemy except in the rarest of instances when the Lord leads me to. Therefore, I do not call myself a prayer "warrior."

Two people asked for prayer this morning and in both cases I prayed. I did NOT address or confront the enemy, because I've learned through very painful experiences, and I mean dangerously painful experiences, not EVER to do that unless the Lord himself leads me to.

So please do not call upon me as a "prayer warrior," because I'm not. I pray, I intercede, but I do not confront the enemy.

Be Careful On Facebook

I posted this on Facebook this morning:

* * * Something weird

I have Facebook "friends" whom I don't know. This morning, one of them posted something in terrible English and hardly a word spelled correctly. I questioned "her" and she came back with comments in even worse English. I went to her site and all the posts there were in correct English, so I messaged her asking if she had posted the post in question which I gave her the link to. She answered that she did. And her answer was in terrible English.

Still scratching my head about this - I went back to her site and looked at her friends and family members. I clicked on a couple family members and their sites are bogus. So I unfriended "her."

The name on her site was a very traditional American name, and that's what threw me off.

Don't ever accept a friend request without checking the person's site. When it's bogus, there won't be many posts, and most of the posts will be pictures of the person and not much else.

I don't know the purpose of people who create fake sites. Why would they do that? What's in it for them? I get friend requests from people like that every single day.

Some of my friends who responded to this suggested that I block her. I hadn't thought of that so I went back to her site to do so ..... and found that IT'S BEEN TAKEN DOWN!!!


Now I'm wondering if I have other fake "friends" on my Facebook account. I have more than 3,700 "friends," it would be a nightmare to go to each one to find the bogus ones. I did vet each and every one before accepting their friend request, that's why I was so shocked when this fake one became apparent.


I want to add here one more thing. I have several blogs, this being one of them, and I sometimes find that someone has "followed" my blog with purposes other than interest in what I post. I go to their blog and find it's all about marketing and sales. I remove them, and they come back - every single day. I've researched trying to find out if there's a way to block them, but on Wordpress blogs there isn't. I can block them from commenting but not from  following my blog. And again I ask, what is their purpose?

Don't Trust First Impressions

Why is it that when you meet a person for the first time, you will quickly like or dislike him/her? What goes on in our minds when we have these reactions?

I had an "ah ha!" moment this morning when listening to someone for the first time on a video. I instantly disliked him. But as I listened to what he had to say and realized that I was in full agreement with what he was saying, it became obvious to me that my dislike was misplaced, and that bothered me. First it confused me, and then it led me to try to get to the bottom of why I had that first reaction.

As I continued to listen with this in mind, after awhile it came to me. He has the same voice that someone I truly do dislike has. So really, I was duped by my first impression which was automatic. Automatic but wrong.

This brought me back a to a job I once had in a large workplace. A woman came into my office and she wanted to vent her emotional hurt. I instantly disliked her. As she told the story of what was hurting her, I found myself very sympathetic to her pain. So later, I was left wondering why I instantly disliked her. It took awhile. I had to really think it through. Finally I found it! I realized that she looks very much like someone who had hurt me years before. So my instant dislike of her was very misplaced.

The mind, the soul, is a very complicated thing. My reactions were immediate, but my understanding was not. First I saw the very puzzling contradiction at having a reaction that was misplaced, and then I had to grapple with it until I found out why I had the reaction in the first place. And when I saw it I was shocked. It made me wonder about negative reactions to others and clued me in to be very careful with first impressions. That first impression could make me dislike someone for no reasonable reason, without my ever knowing it. But now I'm onto it and hopefully I will always distrust first impressions.

Oh No, Not Again - I Need To Learn A New Wordpress???

Here comes a rant. You don't have to read all this, but I HAVE to write it. That's how I vent.

I mean.....

I took a look at the new one - they call it "Gutenberg" - and I hate it. Why oh why can't they just leave well enough alone???

It looks dreadful. I tried playing around with the "Blocks" and all I can say is groannnnn.....

Right now I'm typing this in the old Wordpress, the one that took me all of two whole weeks before I was comfortable with it. Learning Wordpress was a real chore because it's so different from Blogger which I had used for about 10 years. But for reasons I won't go into here, I had to leave Blogger. That meant learning a whole new blogging setup. So I went to Wordpress and had to plod my way through with tutorials groaning and screaming all the way because it was SO different from Blogger. Ok, I got it now. Leave me alone for goodness sakes. I do NOT want another change!

In the new one - Wordpress's "Gutenberg"- instead of seeing a flat text area like the one I'm using right now - you get these boxes that are jumping all over the place. Each paragraph is a separate box. Is that insane or what? I'm looking at my text here in the old Wordpress. Everything is right in front of me. There's a formatting toolbar above with the usual formatting icons. Why is this not good enough??? Why split up every paragraph into boxes that appear and disappear as you try to use them? What a nightmare!

It will be awhile before I go back and take another look. After just one hour looking at the new one I'm just overwhelmed. I don't want to see it again until I recover from this shock. Until then I'll just use this one that I'm used to - until they force the new one on me. Groannnnn......

A Report After Using Windows 10 For a Couple Days


Instead of complaining about the heartache of losing Windows 7 and being forced to go with Windows 10, I've decided to look instead to whatever good I can find in it. Mourning is unproductive. Well let me reword that because mourning IS productive, it produces negative feelings and I certainly don't need that.

  Ok. Windows 10. I bought the laptop a couple days ago and of course it has the dreaded new operating system, and I had no choice in the matter. So Windows 10 it is!

The first thing I noticed is what I DON'T have to do. The first thing I planned on doing before anything else was to search for and install an anti-virus program. It was quite a surprise that Windows 10 has one already installed. That's a PLUS.

Being totally unfamiliar with this new operating system, I went first to youtube to see if I could find a beginner's tutorial. Found a good one, and by the time I was halfway through it, I "got it," and didn't need to watch the rest of it. I WILL go back and watch the rest when I have time (like that's going to happen?) because I'm sure there are tips it would be good to know.

By the way - you can find youtube tutorials for just about anything you can think of. Make use of them. It's such a great way to learn, and usually with several levels of difficulty. I even found one on the best way to peel an orange! 

It's not really that different from previous operating systems. As long as you have Windows Explorer, your files are set up as they were before, and I use a portable hard drive so I had very little to do concerning files. There are a few files I need daily on the laptop itself, but I had backed them up so I only had to copy them in. The only difference is that they now call it "File Explorer," which actually makes more sense.

I do like the tiles in Windows 10. Makes it easy to get to programs you don't want an icon for on the taskbar. There are a few that I only use a couple times a day, so I'm happy to have them sitting in the tiles place for easy access. The tiles are completely customizable, so I'm happy with that setup.

Another thing I learned to do before I switched to the new computer was to sync my browser across my devices, so that when I went into Chrome, all my tabs and all my bookmarks were the same. I didn't have to set up anything in order to have my browser looking exactly as I left it.

I missed the gadgets that were available on Windows 7 and if they're included in Windows 10 I couldn't find them. But I googled "desktop gadgets for Windows 10" and voila, I managed to get them onto my desktop just as before. Actually, there were a couple I liked even better than the previous gadgets I had there. So now I have a large analog clock, a large calendar icon with the day and date, a weather gadget customized to my zip code, a gadget showing how much space I have left on the hard drive, and a gadget showing how much RAM is being used. I always watch that when I first come onto the computer and wait until it's back down near zero before I go opening a browser and programs.

I wasn't able to get a laptop with 16 gigs of RAM like the one I had before, the closest I was able to get with an HP, (and I insist on HP, had trouble with others before) -  is 12 gigs and I do very much see a difference. I mean, it's ok. It simply means I can't have as much going on at the same time as before. I always had two browsers open, so yes I can close one - the second one I only use when I come online and just before I close out. I always have two Excel files open and I use those all day, but one I can close after updating all I have to update in it. I always have a couple Notepad files open, and I need them to stay open. I always keep Free Cell open in the back. I use it to kill time while I'm waiting for something, or while I'm watching - actually listening to - a youtube video; and that's every day because I keep numerous blogs and I'm constantly looking for appropriate videos to post to them. I have tons of subscriptions on youtube and that has to stay open all day so I can preview all the new ones that get posted. And of course I always have Facebook, Twitter, and Gmail open. Plus the tabs to my Wordpress blogs, and Evernote. I'm sure I'm forgetting something, but for starters this is a good rundown of the what's and why's as they apply to how I use RAM.

A problem I've been having is that several times a day I lose the internet connection. I'm pretty sure it's not the computer, I have an ancient router. Unfortunately I found that there isn't a port to plug the modem directly into my laptop. Well ...let me explain that - there IS a port but the LAN cable I have doesn't fit into it. So I'll have to find out what kind of cable adapter I need and go look for one. In the meantime I have the stand with my modem and router pulled out and turned around so that I can easily access the router to reset it several times a day. Groannnnn ....

Maybe I'll be back later to update this report. Right now I can only say that I'm quite satisfied with Windows 10 - so far.

At the moment I'm hungry, and that always takes priority!